Minggu, 01 November 2015

How much is too much?

Sometimes we just want to be everyone darlings, are we not?

We want to be accepted
We want to stay as good as possible
We want to be perfect

In order to be loved by everyone, we often forgot,

We often forgot that we are just as tiny as a little dust in this galaxy.

We oven search for perfections while imperfections are normal and that is just, being human.

We made mistakes
We made errors
We took the wrong turns

And just remember;
We can not please everybody
There will be that one person who will dislike you (I don't want to use the word "hate", that's too harsh) but what I'm saying is true.

No matter what you have done, whether is good or bad, there will always a person who dislike you or doesn't care about you.

And that's normal.
That's being human.

Question is, will you start being human to yourself?
Will you going on yourself a little bit easy?

Life is indeed precious and what I learned from this social media era is, the freedom of speech is way too much.

Too much that it is okay for us to please everyone while in the inside we are hurting.
Too much that it is normal for us to bully people, judge them, eventhough we barely know the truth.

But how much is too much
When the too much is being a burden to us, will that be okay for us to stay in order to be "accepted"?

Just my two cents 💔

Senin, 19 Oktober 2015

Breastfeeding momma!

Talking about another blessings, Im so blessed that God allows me to produce enough milk for my baby.

But that process was never an easy peasy process, well as for me. 


My newborn baby, he was so small!


There are so many moms out there, knowing that I still breastfeed my son at 15months, were amazed and asking me, how to produce enough milk for him? 

Well be prepared to have such a rollercoaster breastfeeding journey Im about to share now.

I don't have a lot of milk that some of the women have. So that you could store up the milk in the freezer, I dont have milk that much.

My son was not able to latch on me properly until he was 2,5months, that means during the first 2,5 months my nipples were cracking, I was so much in pain seeing him unable to latch on me and I have to squeeze my breast so that the milk will go straight into his mouth, days and night, for 2,5 months.

During the "crazy" breastfeeding process 😂

There are times I have to pump because the milk made my breast gorging, and it was so painful because my son couldn't suck it and it got stucked in my breast, but when I pumped it out, my milk was all pink because of my cracked and bleeding nipples.

Not to mention when the growth spurt moment came (will share about the growth spurt in details in another post), my son will ask for nursing soooo oftenly. It could be anytime; daytime, nighttime, or even late at night. And he will nurse, and nurse, and poo, and pee, and vomit, and doing the same cycle over and over again. No sleeping (or eating) time for me. 😂

I'm a Milk Monsta!😂

And after 2,5months, Im finally able to cope with his "no-timetable" nursing time, and finally he was able to nurse and latch on me properly. I was so happy! Until another problem came, the teething and biting time! Everytime the teething time began, he will bite, literally bite my nipple until it cracked (again) and swollen 😂 but I'm already getting the hang of it so it's fine 😂

Yeah son, you better bite on that cot, not on mom's nipple!😩

And before I knew, I already breastfeed him for 15months and I think I will be doing this for like, hopefully until 2 years or so.

A tips for me for a successful breastfeeding journey:
1. Commitment
Breastfeeding requires time and commitment. It is time consuming and without any commitment, you may kill your child, lol. Im being serious here. Your baby will nurse, and pee, and poo during growth spurt time and you may not get enough rest, and by breastfeeding means you will not have a free time because the milk is in you. 

So whenever your baby needs you, you gotta be around. I stick with my son like whenever he needs me, my breasts are always ready! It's like having a 24hours fastfood buffet around 😂

PS: NEVER TRUST IN BREASTPUMP! sometimes at daytime I only able to pump "just" 80ml both sides but when I let my son latch on me himself, he wet his nappies a lot a lot and a lot and there's no sign of dehydration and he is weighing a lot so I assume my breastmilk is enough for him.

My son's face while sleeping, the sign of getting enough "Mamamilk😂"


2. Food Allergies?
If your baby is prone to allergy or very sensitive, you may have to cancel on eating the food you love as it may cause uneasy process in the baby skin or stomacth, a.e seafood or nuts produce, but the good news is, the allergies will getting better the older your babies are. And to those allergy babies, breastmilk are still way better for them. I will explain about this things in detail later on.

3. Supportive People
In order to have a successful breastfeeding process, you have to rely on support from your husband, parents, families, friends and as for me, MR.GOOGLE. Is my bestfriend lol😂
Because I grow up in a family that known a little information about the breastfeeding things. My husband and my parents, even my in laws are oftenly asking me on giving up in breastfeeding and just formula-fed my son.
Thank God I didnot give up, because God knows how much money I have spent until now If I gave up breastfeeding then 😂.

So if you feel uncertain about something you can just ask the one that you know that they know about breastfeeding, or calling the Lactation Hospital Support like  these:
Or you can just click here for more details : 

And nowadays there are so many support groups online that you can find such as; 

4. Have Faith in your Breast lol
You will find many people and web telling you to eat a lot of food, avoiding certain foods, and be happy and stress free in order to produce lost of milk.

Well, I kinda opposed to that because I had a babyblues on my first month, on the confinement period. I cried and cried everyday. I was not ready of the breastfeeding and feeling helpless because no one knows about it in details yet the milk still came lol. So it's totally bullsh*t for saying that producing breastmilk should take a hard process.

I forgot where I read the news but the women in a poor country, even they barely eat, they can still produce breastmilk for their babies. So no whining start trying lol.


Long story short, there was never an easy peasy process that will develop such great ending. You have to try and fall and try and fall and try again to get up. Breastfeeding requires your tears, and pains and all the dramas but believe me, at 15months, my son is able to latch on me while smiling and hugging me and looking at me tenderly and I realized that I did not make the wrong choice.

Again, breastfeeding is a choice. Is not something that make me a better mom for breastfeeding my son, No. I'm sharing my experienced and opinions, and if it doesn't fit your story and your life then it's okay. If you can't breastfeed your child it's also okay. Most importantly, never give up in trying and giving the best to our child, no matter what

Me, my husband and my son were celebrating our wedding anniversary just a while ago

Jumat, 16 Oktober 2015

I guess this is comeback?

After such a long time no blogging, I guess it's safe for me to say that this is a comeback. Im acting all mighty I know 😂

And knowing that my last post is on 26th April 2013, things have gone way far in my life.

I still remember back then, I wrote a post about whether I should or should not having a baby, and now I'm blessed enough to have a baby on my own.

Say hello to Francis Exton Ozora !!❤️

He is 15months by now, healthy and happy and turning my whole world literally upside down by every bit of his actions 😂

And hopefully this post will lead to many post from now ❤️

 

Catch ya later!❤️

Kamis, 25 April 2013

Just a simple thoughts about life

Nobody knows what our path will be in our life.

Life is a series of both fortunate and unfortunate events we must face on our own.

In life, I met you, and you and you.

Together we conquer all the hardships in front of us, as a lover, as friends, as families, or simply just a stranger met by a coincidence.

But whatever our path will be, we still do not know our destiny.

Will we die today?
Or tomorrow?

Let live our life to the fullest.
Live like you'll die today.


Senin, 04 Maret 2013

Taken from kelly <3

"There's a place that I know
it's not pretty there and few have ever gone
if I show it to you now
will it make you run away?



or will you stay?
even if it hurts
even if I try to push you out
will you return?
and remind me who I really am
please remind me who I really am



everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it


will you love me?
even with my dark side?



like a diamond
from black dust
it's hard to know
what can become
If you give up
so don't give up on me
please remind me who i really am



everybody's got a dark side
do you love me?
can you love mine?
nobody's a picture perfect
but we're worth it
you know that we're worth it



will you love me?
even with my dark side?



don't run away
don't run away
just tell me that you will stay
promise me you will stay.."




Sabtu, 02 Maret 2013

Javana bistro

Actually, this is the zillionth time ive been here, in Paris van Java.


Okay im just being super exagerrating.


But seriously, since this is the only one fabulous plaza/ mall in the small lovely Bandung city, well as for me.

And I love to hang out just to enjoy the day, spending my pennies or just simply dine out. Like what im doing now.

There are bunch of eateries here and most of them are uniques in their own way, both in the design and the uniqueness of the food garnish and also, on top of it, their hard work in fullfilling our hungry tummy and high expectation in choosing their place.

This time, after passing this place, twice, me and my hubby decided to stop by at Javana Bistro.

Well, the place is a comfy one, with a bar area on the left side and they have two choices of dining area: inside and outside. As for me, both are the same since they shared the same air. The air con doesnt seem to work properly inside.

Well, nuff saying, let's hit the plate!

We ordered "Chicken Solverino" and "Honey Glazed Salmon" for our lunch and the sweet "Es Sekolah ala Javana" dessert for the closing.

Well..


After the nom-nom-ing...


I have to say I love, really2 love the chicken. For the price of 47k, they give you two (yeah two) quite big slice of the chicken fillet, covered in melted cheese + juicy tomato sauce. At the base side of the chicken, there are sort of grilled vegetables but unfortunately they are a biiiit overcooked, but overall this food is a A taste for me.


As for the honey glazed salmon, for the price of 75k, the salmon is, well, too small! :(. Apart from the good taste, i'd rather order some from the other place that offer the same / lower price but the size is bigger. Well size DOES matter :P. But if you fancy trying the way they served the crispy salmon skin and the sweet honey taste, go choose this one.


Last but not forgotten, the signature "Es Sekolah ala Javana". Why Es Sekolah? I dont know. Perhaps they want this dessert to remind us about our sophomore years or so but this one is a total failure. I found two ice cubes inside the one so called ice cream that makes the taste go sweet-less. Too bad. I was expecting more of this one, though, since I'm a sweettooth :B


Well anyway, im not a food bloggie but i recommend you this place since they have a good hospitality, and a nice ambience and a nice food as well.

Happy Sunday!









Kamis, 03 Januari 2013

Baby on board?

Having a decision of having a baby is kind of principal. It is not something you could decide so easily.

As for myself, i have to admit a little bit of myself wanting to have a baby while a huge part of myself screaming that I am not ready yet.

While actually, this has been a burden for me since I have been married for a year and yet, my parents, grandparents and in laws have questioning the same old questions over and over again.

*sigh*

For me, having a baby is not a simple thing to do. You have to think and decide precisely about almost every aspects in your life, since you will be welcoming a new member of the family in your life.

You also need an adaptation. Start thinkig about what your child needs or wants in your home or in short: your daily environment have to be adjusted. You have to share your own comfort zone with your child.

*another sigh*

Well..


Someday, I promise to myself, I will be a loving mom to my children. When that time comes, it could be this year or next year or so, I hopefully will be ready.